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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
I am such a naive, gullible blockhead who tends to take in whatever people say easily. This particular situation has left me daft. Now, all i experience is an emotional turmoil which is suffocating me. I can't breathe... Things took a change yesterday. I thought the confidence had was lost and was kinda relieved and happy at the same time. I just couldn't bring myself to put across those hurtful words. In the night, something cropped up. The continual loss of blood needed immediate attention. An operation is inevitable this morning. Death was lurking near... and i was one of the beneficiaries to the will. I don't wish to receive a single cent, i rather the person be alive. I broke down.. mummy knew about it.. and we are hiding the truth from daddy.. in fear of getting banned from mapling and fiercesome scoldings. If daddy ever knew about this, i believe i will have a difficult time living past tomorrow. I could tell mummy was disappointed in my behavior and asked me umpteen times if she needed to tell daddy about this. I know her plight. She doesn't want to keep things behind his back. Unless i become crazy, i would tell my daddy. What a mess i have created... Mummy doesn't know how i feel. She thinks otherwise. My brother understands what i am going through.. She warned me never to step into the hospital and immediately after my outing with my frenz today, i'm supposed to go home. Unless i am crazy again, i would pay a visit at the hospital. Jeez... would i ever do such a thing? Never in my life will i go and court my doom by meeting a stranger. I just want all to be safe and sound.. Not whatever mummy was thinking of. Becoz of u, my life has turned upside down. Once u manage to live past this ordeal, i will need to clear matters up before they get worse... sorry if i hurt u in any way, but i think this is the best way out for both of us...
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