The day started out pleasantly, preparing to attend a wedding lunch held at Regent Hotel. It was my cousin's wedding. A cousin whom i wasn't even aware of existed, somehow. She, a young and mature 28, teaches at Nan Chiau Primary. One of the sister schools under Hokkien Huay Kuan.

Anyway, the lunch was rather enjoyable. Fancy me attending a wedding lunch for the first time. Pretty special. And Bryan Wong was present too! Lol. Not that girly compere/host but the Channel U's talent spotted Superhost [if i'm not wrong]. He's pretty good looking with a nice, manly build. I guess he captured more attention than the bridegroom. Oops. The funny thing was he giving out complimentary carpark tickets to drivers. "You need? You need? Carpark tickets!" Omg, like some pasar malam vendor.

After lunch, to avoid the solemnization of the newly weds, most of us left. My uncle fetched us home. On the way home, i saw a Zonda!!! One of the only two in Singapore. Wow, it was eye catching and simply gorgeous. It moves at top speed man. Few seconds before, it was behind us. Few seconds later, it overtook us and was nowhere to be seen. Holy cow...

Something horrible happened on the way home. I believe it's not worth mentioning. Heartbreaking. Things had been getting from bad to worse over the past few weeks. I'm helplessly lost. There's nothing i can do to salvage what's left. It's out of my reach. If only i held some power, had some say... things could have been slightly better.

After a good cry and penning it down, i guess i'm feeling much better now. Common tests are just round the corner. I want no such distractions anymore. It hurts terribly. And i really hope to see less of such episodes recurring in my life. Is there really a price to pay for everything good that comes with it? Can't we have the best of both worlds?

What an irony. One moment i was happy and all, the next moment, i was really disappointed and crying my eyes out. Sigh~

In lieu of daddy and mummy's wedding anniversary, we held a celebration yesterday at Crystal Jade Kitchen. It was a simple dinner and gor even bought them a small chocolate truffle to be shared between them. Awwww so sweet. The oriental dishes weren't very fabulous though it's Crystal Jade. And the price for each dish is at least $8+, from what we ordered.

After dinner, it was shopping time! Daddy and i bought a pair of track shoes each. Daddy bought another pair of formal wear shoes. His wardrobe of shoes is piling up. Haha...

Bel and i added one pair of earrings to our tiny collection each. Mummy stocked up on daily necessities from Cold Storage and by that time, it was way past 8pm.

Glad that everyone enjoyed the outing yesterday ;)

The numerous times we spent discussing on issues relating to discrimination, prejudice and stereotyping had finally come knocking on my door. Today, i had my fair share of being discriminated against.

That feeling was terrible. I was deeply hurt, upset and disappointed. It felt as if i was some worthless trash, of no value at all. Unless you are discriminated against, you will never understand how it feels like to be victimised.

Right after EPM presentation, my tutor's first question to the audience was "So what criticisms do you have for them?" He went on to say " You all are not from MCM [Mass Comm] right?" (nodded our heads) "From ACC [Accountancy]?" (nodded again). Next reply was "No wonder. MCM students can present without handcards, make impromptu speeches. And you all have to rely on the handcards. Not that i am criticising all of you, you all did a fairly good job in your findings, surveys... I can tell you all did your homework. But yr 3 already, and you all still present till like that. What happened to your Oral Comm?"

Mouths shut, fuming mad inside all of us, we tolerated. Proceeded back to our seats and suffered another bombardment from him.

Next group came on to present. "GOOD! GOOD! That's what i want. Are you all from MCM?" Reponse was negative. "ACC ar?" Again negative. This got me darn pissed. His next response was "No wonder."

So there we have it. ACC is discriminated against. MCM is the cream of the crop, at least to him. Excuse me, different people have different abilities. You can't expect everyone to be as vocal as the Mass Comm students. That's their specialisation. If they ain't vocal, don't even think of getting a job in the media industry. Accountancy students are more or less quiet in nature. Most of us are better in writing compared to speaking. How can you demand the same from everyone?

It's such an irony. He teaches effective people's management and one of the topics was managing employee diversity. Having been through countless presentations, didn't he at least learn something from it? The society is diversed. We humans have different aptitudes. Understand us and accept us for what we are. Don't ever compare. It doesn't do us any good.

Is he even fit to be a tutor? Bias shouldn't be present in a learning environment. It's obvious he favours MCM students compared to ACC students. He classifies us as the lowest grade. He has lost the respect i have for all tutors.

Well, carry on this way and in no time, you will jeopardize your career. Thank your favouritism for it. You asked for and deserved it.

*Darn pissed and upset" Ruined my mood. I've lost all motivation to do well for this module. Probably my first C in my record. F**k.

This year's Mother's Day made all of us realise something. His act caused us heartaches and disappointments, especially so for mummy. He has changed - for the worse. Sigh~ [At least he made up for it today by giving his sincere apologies. But scars will always leave its mark, isn't it?]

Nevertheless, we had our Mother's Day celebration at a nearby coffeeshop upon mummy's request. It was a scrumptious meal with special dishes mummy will never cook. Haha.. The boss was so adorable. He gave mummy a present and teased us for not having any. Ahem. Dinner was yummy!

Strolled to NTUC Fairprice, having ate such a full meal. Bought quite a bit of daily necessities and my new blood red umbrella. Hopefully it is able to withstand the wind pressure during downpours and not having me worry about it turning inside out.

Mummy, happy mother's day! *muacks*

Day breaks, night falls. One month has flown by since the day i started Yr 3. It's awfully hectic. Never one day did i arrive back at home before the sun sets. Back from school, tutorials. Back from tennis, projects.

Even the weekends meant for relaxation were burnt. With one project down, there's two more to go, due next Monday. And three more are up and coming. Shucks. Furthermore, the preceding day is Mother's Day. Lots of work to do then but still i guess that few hours spent celebrating a day so special to all mothers will be worthwhile. The very most cut back on sleep that very night.

Though i hadn't suffered any mental constipation thus far, i'm mentally strained. I yearn for the day where i can truly relax and spend quality time with my family.

Just the other day, i put my work on hold and decided to have a chat with daddy and mummy. While doing so, i entertained myself by playing with Bel. Seeing the delight on her face made me crinkle inside. Never had i seen such a beam of happiness spread across her face when i played with her. That image of her smiling to sleep is etched vividly in my mind. How much had i neglected her the past month when i was so caught up with school work? Seldom played and joked with her since school started. And i want no regrets for not doing so.

Family to me is the greatest gift from God. Nothing can ever replace the love i get from my family - the only people i can fall back on. It's priceless and one of a kind. Times when i feel so stressed out from studying, there's daddy and mummy to counsel me, bro and Bel to listen to my lamentings... I'm blessed to have my family.

Cherish yours.

It's Sunday night and just a moment before this i was struggling with my CSP project. Taking a break from it, i'm here to blog. And that's just one of the few projects wrecking damage to my brain.

Enough about the never-ending, ever piling work, i attended a 4-hour course in school yesterday. Very useful in the future when i try to secure a job. It's about resumes, job interviews, business etiquette etc... And there's a part 2 next week. Looking forward to it, though it starts really early in the morning. *yawns*

Along with Baoyi and Sherlin, we went down town for lunch. Met up with Elaine at Suki Sushi. PACKED. Queued for half an hour before we got seats and service was pretty slow, must be due to the crowd and uncountable orders from each table.

Towards the end of our meal, there was a big group of teenage boys who entered and their maniac laughter reverberated through the entire restaurant. Geez, rowdy boys. Engaged in our small talk while waiting for our food to be served. In the end, cancelled orders. Too slow already. Testing our patience. Haha. Ate till 5pm before we called it a day.

Plopped dead on the bed the moment i reached home. Shagged~

I'm just venting my anger accumulated over the past two weeks and probably doing some bitching. No offences to any unrelated parties.

Imagine having a BITCH in the class. Screw her man. I never liked her attitude and personality since i knew her. Anyway, she's not well liked in the first place.

Never did she seem to redeem herself from how badly people view her to be. Being a rep for the class ought to display a sense of responsibility and not delegating work at the last minute. And what made things worse was she self-volunteered.

Besides, she is damn inquisitive. Forever asking irrelevant questions. Quoting from her, "Why is the land revalued at $1 million? I thought..." I wanted to scream at her man. It's given in the question paper. And she goes on and on. Wasting everyone's time. Even her own friend cannot withstand her. I really doubt her intelligence level.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

Done. I'm keeping my cool. Fancy me first time bitching about people. I've broken a record. =s

It has been 7 years since i graduated from primary school, 6 years since i last saw my primary school form teacher and 2 years since i last met up with my best primary school pals. Today, the four of us took the opportunity to catch up on old times over lunch.

We lunched at a Korean restaurant in N Square [i suppose that's the name of the shopping complex], while browsing through a photograph album which Ms Sam brought along with her. I looked exactly like what i am now 10 years ago. [Shi nian bu bian]. Same goes for Dezhi, only that he's much taller and hmm.. more muscular. Pammie changed a little but still that gal with a pretty face. Haha.. Ms Sam hasn't changed a bit. Still the same old her.

The conversation dragged on for almost 3 hours, catching up on one another's lives and recollecting the good old times in primary school. Come to think of it, i am slightly appalled by the fact that internal politics existed as early as 11 years of age. Haha.. probably we thought too much then.

Anyway, Pammie and i never seemed to run out of topics to talk about. That's so cool, even after so many years. Just feel so comfortable around her. Bubbly and all, she's one of a kind - precious gem k!

Dezhi is much more mature but still, that humour lingers around him. He's much better looking now compared to the time when we were still in primary school. That cheeky guy who hums during lessons everyday. Lol.

Remembering the days when the 3 of us were seated right at the back of the classroom... We played and talked alot... I remembered Dezhi even got reprimanded by Ms Sam for talking too much to me. Primary school days were quite enjoyable, so to speak. To be honest, i disliked my primary school days ever since i graduated. After today, i guess my dislike for it has dissipated.

Ms Sam was more of a friend than a teacher now. I even teased her being a bachelorette up till today. Anyhow, as long as she leads her life the way she wants it to be, i guess that's a blessing. [Ren shen jiu shi yao xing fu kuai le] Friends and family members make up for the unfound love. Lol. Oops.

Besides that, Pammie made Ms Sam speak her thoughts on us having taught us for two gruelling years in Primary 5 and 6.

Pammie - The mass comm girl. Very sociable and outspoken, a people's girl. That's why everyone can bond so well with her. And a future tai tai. Lol.

Dezhi - The future doctor who kinda disappointed her cos he's going to pursue LAW!! The guy who will work till 30+ and retire if he can. Lol.

Me - Teacher/Auditor who will be a workaholic, meticulous in my work. If the figures in the balance sheet cannot balance by even 1 cent, i would find out where the missing 1 cent came from rather than fork it out from my own pocket. LOL! Holy cow...

1 cent nia, aiya, ignore rite? Who cares about 1 cent... Probably $100,000 then i mind. Must see the materiality of the amount mahh.. Me not so nghiao sia. Rite rite? Ahem, THAT'S OF COURSE. Haha..

An enjoyable day out with them. Woo hooooo~

+ Thanks Ms Sam for the lunch treat! ;)