Monday, December 29, 2008
Double Unhappiness

Surprisingly, i was just a little upset. More appropriately, i was somewhat disappointed. Various reasons, which i shan't mention, led to my horrendous grades. They failed to secure me a second upper, much less a first class honours.

Though i was far from expectations this time round, i'm not willing to bow down to failure. The adage "failure drives success" will work as my source of motivation.

I must and will strive harder for the semesters to come, working my way up the ranks. It's a promise i'll adhere to for the next 2.5 years.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

2 hours of non-stop rituals and cymbals clashing. It was ear deafening. A jazz band was also invited to play for Grandma. Their songs touched our hearts. The final piece being "Goodbye My Love"... it tore our hearts apart.

Several minutes later, the funeral procession started. We walked a certain distance on socks before boarding the chartered bus to Sin Ming. At the monastery itself, Grandma's coffin was lifted and after another round of rituals, her coffin was pushed into the incinerator. My heart bled. I could no longer control my tears from trickling down my face. That was the ultimate end. The very last time we could get close to Grandma... But i'll always remember her peaceful look when she was placed in the coffin.

The entire area where her wake took place and the times we shared will be etched deeply in my mind. Everytime i pass by that area, memories of her wake will start flashing back.

I'll always keep you in my heart... Rest in peace Grandma.

Monday, December 15, 2008
Death of Grandma

Halfway into my journey, the most unexpected call came. Grandma lost the will to survive. She was 80. At that instance, a wishful thought came to mind. I would rather it rained and returned me my grandma...

In the end, i headed back home and got ready for the wake. Prayers and chantings... Grandma looked peaceful. Many teared but we were consoled that she was finally freed from her sufferings. But the loss of a loved one is no doubt still bitter.

At the wake, somehow everyone became closer as compared to every CNY meet-up. Life is such an irony. From the wake, I was surprised by the number of nephews and nieces i had. Time flew by so quickly without our knowledge. It scares me...

For the next few months, my world would be a sea of monochrome. And for the very first time, it would be a stay home CNY. Upsetting but necessary to respect the dead. In no time, it will be my turn. True enough, reality is dreadful for every day is a step closer to death.

Friday, December 12, 2008
Fear of Death

A decade back, we were in no doubt she would live for another 20-30 years, given her hale and hearty condition. But the situation today seemed otherwise. According to doctors, her days are numbered...

The once robust her suddenly turned into a frail-looking old lady whom i could no longer recognise. Seeing her curled up in an awkward position due to her bed sores really pained me. In her hand, she clutched on tightly to a towel, never once letting go of her grip. It was almost impossible to pry open her fingers.

Furthermore, she could hardly register our faces when we greeted her. All she did was stare back at us with dreamy eyes. Every now and then, she dozed off, awakening at the slightest sound.

From a loud-mouthed her, she could not even mumble a word now. The only response she made was shaking her head. My heart truly went out to her.

Surrounding her were several medical equipment. One of which was to moniter her heart rate and blood pressure. The beeping sound of each heartbeat was a consolation. It frightened me during times when the beeps lengthened longer than they should. Her heartbeat was erratic which worried me alot.

She shouldn't be leading this life. Really, she shouldn't be. She deserved a much better life but sadly she chose this route...

13 years ago, my maternal grandfather passed away. This was the one and only time where i experienced my loved one leaving me. The taste of permanent loss has since long left me. And i'm not ready to take on a second any sooner, or even forever. I'm afraid. Very afraid. I hate the sight of people whom i love leaving me.

I then realised how easy it was to recollect the past yet disturbing to look into the future when it's full of uncertainty whether i'll even live past tomorrow.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Sec Sch Friends Meetup

Qiu Han, Yuting and Cecilia - the three ladies i hung out with most often in secondary school. The greatest change award would have gone to Cecilia. Her outer appearance took a 360 degree switch. Qiu Han looked fairly the same as before, only with her hair dyed and rebonded. Yuting didn't change. Haha.. perhaps even slimmer than before.

The four of us had lunch at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe. Since it was a brand new outlet in Northpoint, customers streamed in and out non-stop. Though it was already past 1pm, there was still a queue outside.

Food was not bad. We were definitely spoilt for choice. There were more than 200 items to choose from. Their desserts were humongous. Qiu Han and Cecilia had a mango something something and the shaved ice piled up like that of an ice kachang, or perhaps even higher. They ate till their mouths and noses were numbed. Haha!

Shopped around the new wing. I've walked around for a couple of times. The freshness of the shops had already died alittle for me. But at least they were far better than before the renovation set in.

It was a short meetup and i was back home to accompany lovely Mummy. :))

Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Shop Till We Dropped

Foodcourt as it is named but it carries the looks of a restaurant. Bright green bamboo shoots ran across the perimeters of the 4-unit big foodcourt. They certainly added colour to the densely populated set of dark wooden furniture. A total of 10 stalls sold various types of Japanese cuisine ranging from ramen, sushi, tempura to rice burgers.

New to this foodcourt, the rice burgers definitely tempted me. I had a salmon menkai set for a mere $6.20. The salmon rice burger came with a drink and some fries. It tasted as good as it looked. Not only that, it was a fusion of the East and the West. A nice mix of two cultures - very interesting concept.

With Daddy and Mummy around, our stomaches will always be stuffed with food. Today was no exception. We had a spread of food, man. Tempura (softshell crabs, sweet potato, lotus and mushroom), deep fried fish and chicken patties, squid, ramen, miso soup, japanese curry and lots of sushi! That's besides my rice burger set.

Nevertheless, the food was reasonably good considering both the price and flavour. I wouldn't mind going back for more again. :))

After such a hearty meal, we were in need of some exercise. We lingered in Giordano for god knows how long. Daddy is getting trendier! Haha... sexy jeans and tee. He claimed he looks younger that way. With lots of tease bugs in my genes, i couldn't help but strongly disagreed and he shot me a "furious" look. Heh.

We then proceeded to Esprit. It was having a clearance sale! That made my day. I busied myself with those pretty blouses. In the end, i made do with 2 blouses and easily persuaded Mummy to get me a wallet (which i claimed was for my 21st birthday. That always does the trick. Haha..) Woo hoo~ That somehow settled my CNY shopping. Ayyy... such a quick affair. Sad-ded.

Yeps, right after the purchases, we were about to crumble. Shopping truly makes one really tired. That concluded our day out. Back home to rejuvenate!

Monday, December 08, 2008
December Weekend

Managed to meet two year 1 juniors. That made me think back of the days when i first entered poly. 3 years have passed in an instance which brings me to where i am today (which i slightly regret. Haha..) If only time could turn back...

The following day, i had a K Box session with the guys. Singing is always the best form of relaxation. Later on, we adjourned to X-Zone. Guys surely like arcade games, something which girls are unable to comprehend. Leonard is an exception. Haha.. he's my ally.

Owing to Saturday's tennis, i was very very very lethargic on Sunday. Back at home last evening and with some good rest, i was revitalised. Got down to the task of sprucing up bro's room. Messiness irks me a lot. Seeing it clean with books/papers neatly arranged makes me happy. Haha.. And in the process of it all, bro woke up from all the noise i made. Heh..

So another weekend zoomed past just like that. 3 more weeks before the new semester starts. Sian.

Saturday, December 06, 2008
Day out with Bao Bao

On the whole, the movie was pretty amusing. It clearly illustrated why dogs are still man's best friends after all. Also, Rhino was the motivation behind Mittens and Bolt, where the determined latter finally reunited with its lost owner. The movie wrapped up very nicely and as usual, it was a happy ending.

Right after Bolt, Baobao brought me to Taka for dinner. Introduced me to Japanese omelette rice. Yummy! but too huge a portion. My stomach was stuffed. Haha..

Both of us had a good time catching up and teasing each other like always. And we agreed Poly days were the best up till now. Haha.. Nothing beats Poly life.

2 weeks later, someone's big day is coming up. Till then do we meet again!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Kbox @ AMK

Committing myself to a promise really is a tough matter to fulfill, especially if the promisee is babe. Haha... Her incessant reminders forced me to get it done and over with. And that promise was none other than a treat to kbox.

Yesterday was the chosen day. Still, she wasn't satisfied with 3 hours of singing and requested for more. Hell, definitely not. My throat was hurting badly owing to lack of practice for the past couple of months. That ungrateful brat. Lol.

Just realised babe's singing is pretty powerful. She held her songs better through a mic. It beats singing in the bathroom which rocked the entire block. I pity neighbours who had to be tortured by her early morning (5+ am) practices daily. She was the best alarm clock you could ever find. Isn't it? Haha... Gonna get it from her...

Down with one promise, another to go. Shucks. That's what happens with younger sibling(s)... Boiled down by numerous promises which i must keep to.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Polyclinic Visit

The nagging pain at the arches of my feet forced me to visit a doctor. Intended to obtain a letter of recommendation from the polyclinic to reduce my medical fees. That seemed redundant now.

Doc diagnosed me suffering from plantar fasciitis - a medical term for flat feet. Great. Everything that involves feet movements is going to be cumbersome. Athletic activities though permissible have to done with care.

Doc prescribed anti-inflammatory drugs and advised committing myself to daily physiotherapy to relieve the pain. Also, foot arches have to be placed in shoes to reduce the muscles between the toes and heels from stretching the plantar. A suffering for life. That sucks.

Seems like i'm destined for flats and pumps only. Heels and stilettos will only aggravate my condition. I can't elevate my height anymore! Oh man! Grrrr... Lol.

Perhaps i will stop jogging from now on. Tennis... hmmm probably less strenuous sessions. Hopefully the foot arches and painkillers will help...

Monday, December 01, 2008
Quiz

1. What kind of boyfriend/girlfriend do you like?
- Jovial, friendly, intelligent, humorous, but most importantly, someone i feel comfortable with.

2. How do you celebrate your 1st month?
- God knows. The guy should plan this, isn't it? Haha...

3. Do you feel safe with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
- I've yet to find out.

4. When you saw your stead injured or sick, will you be there even if you're busy?
- That depends on the seriousness of the injury/sickness and whether i can take urgent leave.

5. When it is your 12th month and your stead was having another relationship, what do you do?
- Tough question. If stead has a gf outside means there are problems with our relationship. So i guess we got to thrash things out together and resolve this issue.

6. What if you know your ex is still loving you when he/she is single and you're attached?
- If he's an ex, that meant there was a problem somewhere which led to the breakup isn't it? That would probably stop me from returning to my ex. Furthermore, i already have a guy by my side.

7. Name 3 love/sad songs.
- Because you loved me, Because of you, There you'll be.

8. What do you do when you and your stead quarrelled?
- If it's my fault, i'll apologise.

9. Do you wish to know that anybody is having a crush on you?
- Even if i do know, that doesn't mean that we will get into a relationship. But it'll be nice to know how well liked you are by the opposite sex. Haha...

10. What if you're single and some people got a crush on you?
- Like i mentioned above, it has to be mutual and both characters must match well before even considering a relationship.

11. When you fall in love with someone, how will you feel?
- Flushed. Exploding with life. Haha...

12. How many times did your ex/stead/someone break your heart?
- Perhaps once?

13. If your stead and you quarrelled, who will be the one to say sorry?
- Got to be rational on this issue. My fault, i apologise. It works the other way too.

14. What if your stead wants to end the relationship? What will you do?
- I will want to know the reason(s). If the journey through this relationship was bumpy and full of obstacles, i suppose ending it will be most ideal.

15. Did your stead give you any presents? Which did you like the most?
- I don't think i'm fit to answer this question. Haha...

16. When is your last cry for someone you love?
- 2 years ago.

17. Did you break your promise to your stead before? If yes, how many times?
- No stead, no promises made. Lol.

18. Do you wish to have a long lasting relationship?
- Definitely.

19. Did your stead kiss you in public?
- No stead, no kisses, no public affection. I'll bash him up. Hahaha...

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