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I woke up tearing, startled by a dream so real, so frightening. No, it wasn't some nightmare or after effects of catching a late night horror movie. This dream came as fast as it went. However, it never once left my mind even though a month had passed after its occurrence.

Puzzled with the possibility of a dream scaring me so badly? What if i told you i dreamt of my death? It seemed and felt so real when the dream took place. Fully aware that my battle against cancer was over, I saw myself biding my final farewells before heading to bed, knowing very well that it was my final night as a mortal. I couldn't tell them enough how much i love and treasure them... My immediate family members shed silent tears as i slowly drifted to sleep. They knew that was the last time they could hear my voice, feel my warmth and see my teary eyes capturing their beautiful faces one final time...

I stood afar watching them cry for me. I wanted so much to return to them, but somehow i couldn't. It pained me. Then, i struggled to wake up but i simply couldn't. I could only feel tears trickling down my face. Moments later, i managed to free open my tightly shutted eyes. Relieved and thankful for being alive still, i feared returning to sleep. And this fear consumed me for almost a week.

Unable to ease my worries and fears, i did some research. Dreaming of death, in accordance with the numerous websites i visited, was a sign of positiveness rather than negativeness. It signified a change i wanted to make or a new stage in my life. In other words, it meant rebirth. Well, i chose to believe it to set myself at ease.

That got me thinking about the things i always wanted to do but never got about accomplishing them. And so, i made a list.

Perhaps these are the changes i truly want to make in my life. To help the less fortunate when i can and reciprocate the love and affection my family has provided me with all these years. I only hope i'm never too late to complete this list...




	Friday, February 06, 2009 Change I woke up tearing, startled by a dream so real, so frightening. No, it wasn't some nightmare or after effects of catching a late night horror movie. This dream came as fast as it went. However, it never once left my mind even though a month had passed after its occurrence. Puzzled with the possibility of a dream scaring me so badly? What if i told you i dreamt of my death? It seemed and felt so real when the dream took place. Fully aware that my battle against cancer was over, I saw myself biding my final farewells before heading to bed, knowing very well that it was my final night as a mortal. I couldn't tell them enough how much i love and treasure them... My immediate family members shed silent tears as i slowly drifted to sleep. They knew that was the last time they could hear my voice, feel my warmth and see my teary eyes capturing their beautiful faces one final time... I stood afar watching them cry for me. I wanted so much to return to them, but somehow i couldn't. It pained me. Then, i struggled to wake up but i simply couldn't. I could only feel tears trickling down my face. Moments later, i managed to free open my tightly shutted eyes. Relieved and thankful for being alive still, i feared returning to sleep. And this fear consumed me for almost a week. Unable to ease my worries and fears, i did some research. Dreaming of death, in accordance with the numerous websites i visited, was a sign of positiveness rather than negativeness. It signified a change i wanted to make or a new stage in my life. In other words, it meant rebirth. Well, i chose to believe it to set myself at ease. That got me thinking about the things i always wanted to do but never got about accomplishing them. And so, i made a list. Donate blood Do voluntary work Donate to the busker weekly Donate to charities when i have the financial means Build a home for the needy (provided i have the resources) Visit Switzerland, Canada, New Zealand, Japan, South Korea, HK, Taiwan Be the best daughter and sister (most important) Perhaps these are the changes i truly want to make in my life. To help the less fortunate when i can and reciprocate the love and affection my family has provided me with all these years. I only hope i'm never too late to complete this list... Posted by Lynette at 11:15 PM		Me Lynette Lee Capricorn NTU (NBS) Loves Family Friends Food Tennis Wishes Healthy family and friends Do voluntary work More clothes and shoes! Chat Past September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 Dar'links Links Baoyi Dave Dezhi Dickson Edison Elaine Erwin Huiling Jocelyn Leonard Mingyang Pamela Qiqi Sinned Stephie Teresa Weisiong Yizhen My New Blog Friend credits Designer Eric Sim Pictures Foto Decadent Brushes and Textures Hybrid Genesis, Misprinted- Type, and Eric Sim Pattern Squidfingers