{[Perfect Escapade =-.]}

My suspicions arose several days ago but i didn't give it much thought until the message came at the most unexpected timing. It unnerved me and i lost my calmness. Not knowing how to handle it and with no help available at that point in time, i had to come up with something. Luckily bro picked up my call and offered me some advice. Thankful for that.

Only now did i realise how afraid i was to step into a relationship. Inexperience, lack of self-confidence and the unpredictability of unforeseen circumstances.

It is a headache when somebody takes an interest in me. Especially when both are good friends and if things do not work out, it is almost certain the bond shared will never be the same again. Impossible to return to how it was previously. That's when one loses a friend... And i simply hate that feeling.

But isn't it more of a headache when nobody likes me? Haha.. how ironic can things get?

On one hand, i yearn to have someone who loves me yet on the other hand, i fear for the worst. And that stops me most of the time. Of course, Daddy and Mummy's opinions are very important to me and i do not want to make a wrong choice. Then again, what's right or wrong? It is never easy to justify. Feelings... that's what cause all the perplexity.

Oh well... all i can do is be in control of my emotionally tangled up feelings and hope this friendship will not take a turn for the worse.




	Tuesday, May 26, 2009 Relationship Fears My suspicions arose several days ago but i didn't give it much thought until the message came at the most unexpected timing. It unnerved me and i lost my calmness. Not knowing how to handle it and with no help available at that point in time, i had to come up with something. Luckily bro picked up my call and offered me some advice. Thankful for that. Only now did i realise how afraid i was to step into a relationship. Inexperience, lack of self-confidence and the unpredictability of unforeseen circumstances. It is a headache when somebody takes an interest in me. Especially when both are good friends and if things do not work out, it is almost certain the bond shared will never be the same again. Impossible to return to how it was previously. That's when one loses a friend... And i simply hate that feeling. But isn't it more of a headache when nobody likes me? Haha.. how ironic can things get? On one hand, i yearn to have someone who loves me yet on the other hand, i fear for the worst. And that stops me most of the time. Of course, Daddy and Mummy's opinions are very important to me and i do not want to make a wrong choice. Then again, what's right or wrong? It is never easy to justify. Feelings... that's what cause all the perplexity. Oh well... all i can do is be in control of my emotionally tangled up feelings and hope this friendship will not take a turn for the worse. Labels: Confused Posted by Lynette at 7:30 PM		Me Lynette Lee Capricorn NTU (NBS) Loves Family Friends Food Tennis Wishes Healthy family and friends Do voluntary work More clothes and shoes! Chat Past September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 Dar'links Links Baoyi Dave Dezhi Dickson Edison Elaine Erwin Huiling Jocelyn Leonard Mingyang Pamela Qiqi Sinned Stephie Teresa Weisiong Yizhen My New Blog Friend credits Designer Eric Sim Pictures Foto Decadent Brushes and Textures Hybrid Genesis, Misprinted- Type, and Eric Sim Pattern Squidfingers